a few thoughts of mine which have been surfacing since I joined the world of 3d.
First of all.
I don’t have self-confidence. I also consider myself a newbie, since I have only been using Blender for about 2.5 months. This is my second project which inspired me (the first was my avatar, which I made in my first two weeks with blender), the rest were just for fun, and mostly out of boredom, and none got finished. Before that just to complete the picture, I played with maya ple for a little time, but got annoyed by it pretty fast because of the watermark, and it was when it first got published, so I don’t really consider that experience.
Now to that which I started to say. I thought I made something really really cool here. I have set my mind to it, and been working hard on it, even if the modeling only took about a week, but as it’s summer, that week was almost all 24 hour days. I have been experimenting with a whole bunch of probes, angles, backgrounds, props. Yes, I did model stuff around the car to bring some spice to it. I tested them on my friends, and came to that simplicity worked the best on them, who ere not connected to 3d at all. So I came up with this final picture, and had one of them believe that it was actually a photograph, only by saying so, even though he has seen a whole bunch of test renders before (which eventually had to suck big time, after I have read your comments, but they said they were cool as well at that time, but this one is the best.) Actually what I really wanted was to composite it inside a real picture, but had to learn that yafray didn’t have the tools for that, but eventually will, and then I’ll do that.
Enough of history. Now for what I am trying to say:
I have noticed that here on elysiun usually people encourage newbies, no matter how crappy the picture they post. And I mean crappy compared to those which are posted by endi, @ndy, speedtiti, env, and others, who are really really talented people and have been doing this for a while, not to themselves, and not to newbies. Those pictures are usually cool, while other which are really really cool usually don’t get those comments, just because they are not newbie pictures. THis has backfired once since I have been here, that ninja animation, which was like the best animation I have seen here on elysiun so far. sure, it had it’s faults, but just because of this mentality the guy who made it was convienced that it’s a piece of crap. And now I feel the same. I am convinced that against all my beliefs I have created the usual crap. It’s not that I want to hear that it’s the best you’ve ever seen, or I wan’t to hear that it’s so cool, when it’s not. It’s just that I feel like it’s exactly at the same level on the scale of bad to good as the paintball picture in the WIP forum (once again, no offense meant on that one), and I find it hard to believe. Actually that one did get that it was cool, mine is nice, so I’m lower. If that is the case, then I feel really really bad, and I am leaving elysiun and the whole 3D world as I just don’t have what it takes, and I have spent a whole week instead of studying, which would eventually pay off, on something completely worthless.
In conclusion, it’s not that I want to hear what I want to hear. It’s that I don’t have self-confidence, and I can’t judge my own work, and I have seen this with others work as well that some simple picture got more credit than a pretty cool one. Come to think of it, an objective scale would be nice, but then again, I could have set up a poll.
Ok, I am sorry if I have wasted your time with this. I for one am glad that I got it out of my system, I don’t feel as bad as I did 5 mins ago