Weedmonkey, I know somewhat how you feel. I desperately wanted to get a computer to run Blender myself - but I had a family to take care of too, and didn’t have many adequate job prospects. Here are some thoughts and ideas.
Channel your frustration into determination - set some goals and focus on the goal not the obstacles. Don’t give up, even if you have setbacks and feel discouraged.
When I’d get tired and want to quit, especially some hard physical task, my dad always used to tell me “get mad at it and conquor that thing!” Now, I don’t know when to quit. :rolleyes: But that’s a different problem.
It doesn’t help much, but if your family has at least enough to eat, then be thankful that you’re in the top half of the world!
If your goal is to get a better computer, then there’s all sorts of ways to do that. There’s always ways to earn money. Maybe not a lot at a time, but some is better than none - don’t be too proud to take a job. There’s always paper routes of one kind or another, grass, flyers & other deliveries, door-to-door selling isn’t so popular but depending on the neighbourhood, its possible. There’s catalog type sales as well that you can often take around, give to parents of friends, take to their work place, etc. We have “Regal Catalogues” here that I took around when I was a teenager. The goal is not to have a career, just earn some cash
Speaking of work places, there’s often “old” computers at workplaces that get tossed out, either because they have some problem or because they’re just “old”. You don’t need bleeding edge to use Blender fortunately!
I got a laptop headed for the garbage that worked pretty much, I just had to buy a hard drive. The place I used to work was getting rid of some 500 Mhz computers and monitors - I was happy to help! I was running Blender on a 500Mhz for several years before then until mine blew - so I was happy to take a castoff again. Somebody I know works for a mover and he’s been given computers that people didn’t want to bother taking with them.
A computer shop might also be willing to let you get customer “trade ins” or other used equipment for a cheap price too, especially if you are friends with someone there. Find a shop that lets you hang around and ask them questions when they’re not busy. It can’t hurt and if they get to know you and what you want to do with your computer, maybe they’ll throw you a deal some time.
If you know or learn a lot about computers in general, you can earn some money too. One time a senior paid me to help set up his new computer and he also gave me his old one - it wasn’t much good, BUT he had a 17" monitor I was happy to get.
Its ok to get frustrated and even a bit angry but don’t let it sour your attitude. If you turn that frustration and anger into a positive attitude - that you will do something about your goal… then its actually easier to do something and achieve your goal. Getting mad and sitting there with a bad attitude is just called sulking (not that I’m accusing you of that) and will get you… nothing. Remember that you will need to involve other people to get a computer. People enjoy helping a determined, cheerful and helpful person - not the other kinds.
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Finally, there’s one other thing you can do, that many people do too. Its called prayer. I don’t know what beliefs you may have about “religion” but many (and I myself) believe that prayer may be answered in the way we desire, even for “small” things like this.
I am not interested in starting a pointless flame war, so if you (or anyone else) want to discuss this at all, use a PM please or it will be ignored. I will not answer any responses on religious subjects… FINAL ANSWER