I know, quite a dramatic statement but it’s the only phrase I could put it in that mirrors my feelings.
I have been away from the forum for the last few months. During this period I have endured great personal problems resulting in my own company going bankrupt and loosing my house and most of my personal belongings in the process. I won’t go into details now but this all has to do with a IRS-employee that seemed to have a personal vendetta towards me and was determined to distroy my company for whatever reason he could find. So be it. Luckilly no clients of my company where hurt in any way.
So now, after eight years of self-employment (with other people in my employment as well) I’m now suddenly without work, without a decent income and without the freedom to decide for myself what I’m going to do next as I’m officially under legal control of the court. This means that if I’m going to work for another company I have to give most of my earnings to the curator and I’m not alowed to startup another business on my own behalf (even though my clients beg me to get back on track for them). It’s a very painfull and stressfull situation and I’m not yet sure where it is going to take me.
Right now I have a lot of time on my hands and so I’m starting to actually learn to work with Blender. I have never done animation but after looking at the training video for the IPO editor I am looking forward to start playing with animation. But first I need to learn Blender from the beginning as I have never used it so far. I do have the manual and with all the available tutorials and great help here on the forum I’m convinced I will get where I want with it. I have several ideas for Blender. One being about building a new company around Blender although I have not yet the idea how. Another idea is to develop a (large) CG-movie because I’ve been working on a story off and on for several years now that would be great for this. I think it would take several years to do it but why not, so I’m thinking it over.
Well, I just needed to get this of my chest. Again, I have no idea where this will take me or how my future is going to turn out. But I’m positive and I’m slowly regaining my strength and energy so let’s face the future.