I’m normally a very stable person. I NEVER crack in almost all situations but this one.
Today I had a hearing test. Apparently my hearings gone down from last year and my employer mandated me to take this test at a pro audiologist. See, our usual testing takes place in a van and there’s 5 others all in the same room wiith just soundboards between us.
Anyway, I get there. The audiologist is this really pleasant looking girl and that’s a good sign for me because I’m already comfortable. She’s not like hot or anything, just all-around pleasant.
I get in the booth and she gives me instuctions etc. I’m supposed to raise my hand when I hear the tones. We start on the right ear… all is cool. I think I’m missing the tones and she just tells me to raise my hand even if I’m not sure. So I’m concentrating and raising my hand and doing good, then all of the sudden BOOM. Full on panic mode. I put my face into my hands and try to shrug it off, no good. I smile at her and give a ‘just a sec’ hand signal and I open the door all in like half a second. She’s taken aback, and looks at me in wonder. I just say, ‘I’m sorry, I’m sorry’. then she asks if I need a break or something and I repeat the sorry’s then say 'Can we just not do this?" now i’m actually starting to cry and choking it back well enough. She say ‘sure’ and starts to talk about rescheduling but I’m out of the office before she even finishes the sentence.
Thing is, I wasn’t panicky before entering the booth. I don’t think I minded being in the little room like a classic claustrophobic would. I THINK the panic was because I suddenly realized that I was being tested! I was raising my hand up on audio cue like a trained monkey and was being compared to normal people. This is simple enough, but wouldn’t that make me angry and not panicky?
So damn confused. I seriously don’t want to be mental.
Edit: Oooo eerie, it’s my monkey post! lol.