I don’t know if this is the right place to ask this or not. But I need some help.
But I can’t seem to find my way in 3D and I’ve lost all motivation. But something you need to know about me is that I have NO patience. None. At all. I can’t stand “making progress” or “practice makes perfect” mottos. They are evil to me.
To me it’s simple, I do something, I expect a result immediatly. I get none then it’s a waste of time. And there is absoluytely nothing you can say or do to change this. I have no patience.
And because of that 3D has become unbarable. I wanted to do animations and make game assets but truth is most of all of this is so infuriating! When it comes to character modelling, I fucking hate it. I wanna create characters but I HATE the process of creating them.
Why? Because of how insanely long it takes for your 3D turds to start looking like characters. I started Sculpting and after two months of doing speed sculpts and other random sculpts everything still looks like crap just like the first day I started. I hate that so fucking much. This is what I mean, no patience. Made me wanna burn the house down! I don’t want the progress or the journey to it! I just freaking want it!! Samething has happened with drawing and most things in 3D.
Animation and rigging is less for some reason. I think because everything is isntant. I make some bones and they immediately work. In animation I put some keyframes and everything moves. I’ve learned more in rigging and animation then in any other 3d field. Because I love the technical and fast nature of these things.
Another thing I do which is not related to Blender but I think it has something to do is Martial Arts. I’ve been doing for a few years, but everytime I learned a new technique, it was exciting. Sure it first I was clumsy and basically auto-defeated myself. But everyday, I was a bit less clumsy and more coordenated until I could perform it perfectly. Why? Because I saw myself grow. I could FEEL it! But in Blender or 3D in general, my characters aren’t better then what they were 2 years ago.
But the thing is, I don’t want to quit 3D. I’ve placed so much time and money into this. I really wanted to get into animation or game design. I don’t need to go end up in big studios like most people wish. I just wanna be good enough to work in projects but latelly I have lost all motivation to keep going. I just can’t never make a character in my head or from a picture in 3D. It all ends up as a meshy mushy turd.
Sorry for my ramblings and poor English but honestly my mind is a little bit all over the place with this. I don’t even know what to expect from this.