Ingie, I am usually very hesitating, when it comes to hating something. A post from a stranger is therefore far from being endangered.
When it comes to love, I do not have the problems you assume. I usually get problems through peoples mistrust which prevents them from accepting my love, but that is all.
Lets face my situation. I am talented. Very and highly talented in many ways. But I have been trained to be a loser. I almost believe that myself. A solution would be an environment, where I can develop my talents, but there isn´t any (it is more the opposite, that is provided). I´ve grown very weak through the years and so I prove people right, when they think of me as a loser. Devil’s circle. Today, my life contains not much dignity anymore and it pains.
You cannot treat a person wrong for two decades and think that there will be no damage. There is much damage. And I have problems to repair that.
There is an easy solution to my problems. (speaking to all of you)
Work together with me. Find out, what I am capable of. If you think I am bousting, then prove me wrong. DO NOT JUST ASSUME!
I know, that the only blender work of mine is a crap angel in the ‘air’ weekend challenge. Not too bad for just two hours of modelling, but shit, when you regard that I had four full days. I admit that the quality of my work depends on my environment. If I have to work for myself, without any other reason, I am weak. Pavlow´s dog is dripping then, because people constantly ring the bell. If I have a more acceptable goal, I can be frightening. promised :o
And I am talking here to the more ambitious people here. To those who have a damn high demand on their work.
A professional Blender trailer would just be right.
I have high demands and high skills. But that means nothing as long as I do not have the strength to pull it through all by myself. So if there are skilled people giving it a try, you are welcomed.
When I say skilled, I do not mean blender. Blender is no problem. Everyone can learn that. I need people who are demanding, when it comes to plots, design, anatomy, detail, and animation.
So someone produce something valuable with me.
But don´t forget to bring your demanding attitude along!
not a beautiful post Joe, sorry, but my life isn´t beautyful either. It is humiliating and careless.