You are … in shock. Right now. But … you are not … alone.
We know, too. We have been there, with you. We grieved. And so, we grieve.
She had no time to think. She was thrust beyond “this mortal coil” in a matter of seconds. And, for a very substantial piece of time now, “we humans who remain” will not comprehend it. We do not yet even fathom our loss: all that, alas, is yet to come.
But, for now, cling to this: albeit “in a matter of seconds, and quite without warning,” she was thrust entirely through The Barrier, and: Beyond it. (Right now, she might be as-much or more confused as you are!) But, nevertheless: there is no human body there, therefore there is no pain there. She did not, but briefly, feel pain. And she will never feel physical pain again.
As for you…
Cling to those who are near to you, in this time. Those who remain on this Side.
And, know that virtually every person whom you have ever “met” on this forum . . . Understands.