Lately, I’ve been grinding away at CGcookie videos from their website, but now I’m just bouncing around various parts of the modeling and animation learning flows because there are things that I do know, and things that I don’t. So when something I do know comes up, I honestly get bored of it and try to find something else, but this just repeats. I’ve looked to various things which used to inspire me, but they don’t anymore. Is this just a phase? Is it something that you go through, only to emerge better than before in some way? If so, how?
Some more on the CGcookie stuff is that I always take VERY detailed notes, as if I’m teaching what I just learned - a (bad?) habit which I picked up in school many years ago. I do this because otherwise, I barely retain any information. I know that I learn best from doing something one on one with someone, rather than from a stock textbook or videos, but that seems both nonexistent or expensive - especially for someone who’s basically broke in terms of money for the personal life
Should I be taking these extensive notes? Especially for something that’s $30 a month (which feels like once a week anymore) - mind you, that’s about the same as an iPhone Xs.
There’s a sort of reality question which I’ve come to ask myself now, especially since I’ve been at this for about 1 or 2 years; is this really the right thing for me? I’ve done videos (youtube), this, and even basic music remixes, but I always reach a point of being lost when I’m at about level 8 of 100.
I have dreams, ideas, and other hopes with blender or just 3D in general, like making an amazing scene so complicated that I actually have to replace my junk computer (I’ve been playing the waiting game to do that for about 3 years now). The problem is that I just hit a locked door at some point, like a little kid who doesn’t know that the key is under the welcome mat and just walks away to go home. I want to be a pro at this stuff, I really do, but I wish that to some extent is was more about doing that learning, where I could finally stop learning more about insetting or using proximity loops (AHH! It gives me headaches!)
I’ve reached out to a handful of people whose work I like, but they never give a response - probably for the better for some reason - what am I going to do? Show how much I don’t know?
Not trying to sound like a downer, because I’m generally a happy person, but this is hard. It bugs me even more when I see someone’s really amazing work because for a moment I go “Woah! That’s really friggin’ cool!” only to think a few minute later, “I doubt that I’ll ever be able to make that. Back to papercraft I suppose.”
The whole real question here is, "Do all artists go through this faze? Is it like 3D puberty or something?
When do you finally grow out of it? BTW, if you somehow managed to read all of this, you seriously have both my gratitude and child-like amazement. Thanks