SoloCreator. I use to be in exactly the same position as you are (well, maybe not to the same extreem). I never had any friends. I can only think of one person I have ever felt a little comfortable with. After graduating from highschool I decided to take some time off to familiarize myself with the Bible more, through personal study. Therefore, I had spent a lot of time at home – never socializing with anyone (at school I rarely talked to anyone, but at least I was able to listen to other people’s conversations). I never ate well and my sleeping habbits are pretty poor. Needless to say, after a several months of this I became depressed and didn’t do any of the things I had planned on doing (studying, blending, drawing, animating, computer programming, learning how to play piano … I had some pretty ambisious ideas in mind, but then I got into a rut and didn’t feel like doing anything at all). There is something about being isolated from everything that really messes with one’s mind and mood.
Then I got a job as a janitor. I know, that doesn’t sound like a good job. I really hated it when I first started, but now I actually enjoy it. I work with a good group of people who are all close to my age, and just being around people seems to help a lot. I don’t work much (only 18 hours a week) so I still have a lot of free time to work on personal projects, or do whatever. The point is, even the smallest amount of contact with people helps one’s mood. After all, humans are naturally social creatures, even if there are many who develop antisocial tendencies. The fact that there is no social contact affects one emotionally.
Also, you should learn to manage your life better. Create a schedule of when you will eat, sleep, and wake up, then try your hardest to keep to that regular schedule. The more one’s life falls apart, the worse one feels, and the less productive one becomes. You have to take hold, become organized, and regain structure in your life – which may be difficult for one who had home schooling (perhaps less strict of deadlines, or less strict of a teacher. Also, perhaps schedules would be more flexable and arbitrary). Say to yourself, after getting up in the morning I will have breakfast, jog through town for an hour (as physical activity also helps), then work at a part-time job, eat lunch. Go to the libary, talk to people about various topics (including your dream of doing free lance work. It is important for people to know what you want, so they could help you), find a book on something you never had an interest in, read for an hour (just to broaden your knowledge). Work on your portfolio, contact people who have similar goals and discuss what has been done and what could be done. Eat supper (perhaps at a resturaunt if possable). See people. Make small talk with the waiter/waitress. Go to bed at a reasonable time.
I still have a lot of reconstructive work to do on my own life (getting a driver’s licence would greatly help me), but I don’t feel my advice is without merrit. Get out more. You may not like it at first, but a part-time job, could become an enjoyable part of your life … even if it seems boring at times.
As far as making money is concerned, it takes determination. You have to always have goals on your mind (a collection of smaller goals is better than just one big goal) and every day work a little toward that goal – even if you don’t feel like working. Force yourself to follow through with work. Identify everything that needs to be done and do it.