Your young willing mind is absorbing biiiig time…
Calm, relax before going to sleep, don’t work, rather read about things that you like, make you feel good & cozy, learn to fly in dreams by your own will…
have a cup of soothing herbal tea with a pinch of honey and milk before going to bed
center self within you, don’t get lost in idolizing… cater to your mental abilities well… it is a great skill
learn to meditate
had same problem, which took quite a while and effort (years and heartaches) to learn to use and master it to an advantage.
Can now create, imagine (visualize, simulate…) everything in my mind (mind’s eye) to the detail, then just translate it to analog and digital, making it real, making self real
Study masters, the great had all walked the path (i.e. look how Michelangelo hid the touch of god (brain) with Creation of Adam)
A tool (software, money, machine, body…) is extension of conscious self; forgetting, disregarding makes it easy to become dependent, a servant and a slave to the Tool, the Man… or anything else except one self - one god.