Yes, that is what I meant and thank you for ignoring the dust. 
Maybe it’s time for a spring clean.
You know rarebit as much as I believe you probably don’t think so I think we both share very similar views on a lot of things and also have very similar personalities. I think I just probably try a little harder to suppress that darker side of me and maybe I over compensate by doing so. But my desire to not see others being belittled was sincere at the time. I also do genuinely care about other people, even people I haven’t met, and I try my best to see past what they are saying to try and understand what they are feeling. The two are often completely the opposite. I’ve chosen now to try my best to kill people with kindness because there is nothing better then seeing someone finally stop squirming and give in.