Well I got some replies over there and they say that questioning of who you are like that is normal.
If I find I am a Dragon, so be it.
If I find I am not, so be it.
If I find I am not and they have their delusions, so be it.
Anyway, one of the Dragons found my post here and thinks I shouldn’t be linking to other forums like that. If that’s the case then maybe I’ll save you the trouble of going there.
[NOTE: Long post and clearly what I really think is the truth.
In another topic I got this in responce to one of my posts
Quote:The other message to that is “don’t indulge in spiritual hypochondriac-ism”… meaning just because you read about something doesn’t mean you are or have that something.
having an acknowledges obsession with dragons and then ‘discovering’ your ‘draconity’ AFTER reading about otherkin is a great big flashing sign. This sign says “Strong Chance of Self Delusion!”
For example, before my awakening, while I thought dragons were elegant creatures, I was obsessed with Star Wards and H:TLJ. grins The latter of those two continues to this day. But still, my ‘awakening’ was very sudden, very strong, and very much “dragon”. I thought I was going bonkers. This a normal, good, and healthy reaction to something that is, at best, absurd.
You on the other hand saw “People beleive themselves to be a dragon… I am a dragon too!” with NO questioning of it. No years and months of meditation and soul searching. Obsession does not = being that thing. You need to sit down and create a list of every reason you might want to be otherkin. And I have a feeling that it might be a very long list for you indeed
When I read this I could literally feel my Draconity crumbling all around me. When I first found out about Draconity my mind started to say I am a Dragon, but later on even more voices in my head tried to pile on top of it saying I’m not a Dragon.
If most dreams don’t count as an awakening then it’s proven I hadn’t had one yet, and I probably won’t. Why, because it seems what she’s trying to say is that I have ended up deluding myself to the point where I had a strong belief inside that I was a Dragon without the solid foundation that other people say they had. Perhaps a delusion that was in the making for 5 years, and was just waiting for that catylist that would rocket it to the point where I come to believe I am a Dragon. I may say I have an inner Dragon, I may say I feel connected with Dragons, but something has come that gives me rather strong reason I had been deluding myself and hiding the truth. My mind is a powerful thing and apparently I can twist myself to believe what I want in a strong manner even causing frequent dreams about the subject.
I came to this site believing that since I was a Dragon I ought to join the Dragon community. Now I may have realized that belief would be just to make me feel good about myself and driven by the obsession over wanting to be a Dragon. So I join, say I’m sure that I am a Dragon, then try to keep my Draconity strong while being blasted with logic. I even went as far as saying it on another forum and managing to get myself rediculed for that. So there, I may have developed my reason to believe I am a Dragon, but then I get even stronger belief that I’m not a Dragon at all and just one person who got obsessed to the point of believing and refusing to let go. Perhaps it was just me trying to fit in with the other Dragons, saying I am a Dragon for comfort reasons and wanting to make myself feel that I would feel at home with others who say they are Dragons.
So I say I’m being honest and saying I am not a Dragon after all, because my mind says that poster has a good point and it may be just me trying to supress what is really the truth about me. There was one point not long after I joined where it felt my Draconity disappeared but came full circle and believed I am a Dragon once again. That I felt I’d rather take that then what was the truth because I felt more at home with the idea I was a Dragon when it was not entirely true.
There I said it, the truth, I knew I had to be honest at one point and I felt I couldn’t hide the truth any longer. Whether or not the Blenderartist members were entirely right about the Dragon community. I know at least if you really are Dragons then I have the strongest feeling of truth that I am not one of them.
And the PM I got from one of them.
[quote]Didn’t we mention afore that linking to other forums is something of a social no-no?
Also, the majority of us admit we may be delusional… And we might. We might all actually have the souls of broccoli. Or we might simply cease to be when this body stops functioning. Or the creator of the universe might be a giant earwig. There are so many things and you can never truly be sure… so adding that wiggle room for doubt also means there’s wiggle room for growth. And at the very least, the majority of us function perfectly well in society with out potentially-delusional belief… but it is, in its own way, no more delusional that islam, judaism, christianity, hinduism, shintoism, etc. It’s just different