I have a confession to make. About three months ago, I asked for a solution to a problem I had regarding blender. *i have a problem regarding blender* it's seriouse - #10 by Maripo
To recap, the original Blender just did not work. One day, it worked fine, nothing abnormal, but then it just… stopped. Every time I opened a file in blender, without any warning, it would simply crash and turn off. And not freeze and crash, just disappear.
There was help. People offered me solutions. The most suggested solution was to check my graphics card. Looking at the older topic, it seems like I was too stubborn to actually try to do so, but that was not the case. It wasn’t that I didn’t want to, it’s that I did not know HOW to.
I love blender. It is a very powerful software that could make Pixar quality animations, is a great video editing software, has great sculpting tools, good for 3D printing, had a useful game engine, and so much more. And it was all for free. I have been using blender ever since 2020, when I got my first personal computer (it was actually a laptop), so to say that I’m very fond and attached to the software would be an understatement. So you just have to wonder, how have I used blender if it couldn’t even run for about three months to now? There was an alternative.
Someone told me to try using this, “blender_debug_gpu_glitchworkaround.cmd”, possibly to test out my issues. When I tried this version of Blender specifically, nothing crashed. Everything worked fine, which I then responded to the post. However, they said it was not optimal, which is when some more stubbornness kicked in. My reasoning for still using the blender candidate: It’s my computer, and it did not explode.
However, that’s not to say it did not have it’s flaws. Because blender candidate is basically and older version of blender (Blender 2.8), UI for more recent files were broken and overlapping, materials were corrupted, and armatures would not deform. I had to do everything from scratch from now on, but I did manage to restore some models. This also meant I couldn’t use new addons or features that came in later versions of blender, like the pose library, something I was really looking forward to.
And so this just leaves yet another question. Why are you avoiding the situation? Why not follow the instructions that other users have asked you to for multiple times? Why are you refusing to follow these very simple steps?
And the answer is one that I was very hesitant to type. It is kind of personal, really, and I fear how certain people will take it. But Blende Artist is a very friendly platform with people who are more than willing to help others, with little to no negativity. So with that in mind, I am making a very risky decision to trust whoever it may be to take this information as serious as I’d like them to.
I am not a professional animator. I wouldn’t even consider myself and armature. But of all else, I am not an adult. I, Jaiveon Schafer, am a 14 year old boy. At this age, there are a lot of things that you cannot do or do not have. You don’t have a lot of money, so you can’t hire anybody or buy things you want or need. You cannot go anywhere you please or do anything you want. You cannot pay bills or taxes or go to court or find a job or raise a family or accept responsibilities or have a midlife crisis or lay down alone in bed wondering where everything went wrong or be a part of a failed relationship, I’m really missing out on the joys of life at this point. But I thought keeping my age anonymous would make others take me serious, because I have never heard of a 14 year old use blender, and trust me, as a 14 year old in this generation, even I wouldn’t take a teen seriously.
And even then, at this age, I cannot understand much in terms of blender fixes. I mean, do you think a teenager is going to understand this?
What if I do something wrong? What if I download a virus? I don’t want my blender files to be deleted. I don’t want my computer to get corrupted. And it seems like a lot of work just to get the original blender to work. At this point, there is someone there that may be thinking. “Is this child stupid? The answer is clearly right there! I swear, I don’t even know why I waste my time reading this”. News flash, I am not you. I really do feel like I’m in a situation where I lose something valuable and cannot find it, only for a parent to come and point at it directly in front of me in the most obvious place you can think of. And I don’t want to replace anything in the computer. There’s a reason I use blender, of all the software in the world: I’M BROKE. I cant by a new flash drive or hard drive or graphics drive, and I am NOT going to disassemble this fairly expensive computer (for my standards) just to find the issue. That’s like suicide, a permanent solution to a temporary problem, just with an antonym for solution.
But I would also like to apologize as well. For anyone who has seen older post, *i have a problem regarding blender* it's seriouse - #10 by Maripo, you will notice that I took the situation very poorly. I was impatient, had a rude tone, and asked way to many questions, going around in circles and being redundant. I even told a user that he should “sit this one out” because I thought he didn’t understand the problem and I just wanted to hear someone else’s solution. That. Was. Very. Unnecessary. I cannot help but absolutely CRINGE at what was typed in the past. Just because I was really frustrated by the fact that blender didn’t work didn’t mean I had to bring my crappy mood to Blander Artist of all places. Though there was one post I could relate to somewhat, that could have contributed to this whole situation.
Only the difference is that I don’t have ADHD, it’s ASD. Yes, I am diagnosed with autism, and it is actually true, not some stupid trend that started on a certain online platform filled with lazy uninspired vertical videos that just so happened to be marketed towards my demographic, despite the fact that I never have or will download it, ISN’T THAT RIGHT GOOGLE!? But just because I have some mental disorder is not an excuse, and I could have avoided the situation, had I used more common sense. It got to a point where it wasn’t me who marked the post as solved, but someone else. But could you blame them? I would also end someone else’s post if they going to have such a crappy attitude on a site specifically dedicated to helping aspiring artists.
Now that my Youtuber apology video is done, I guess I could say that it wasn’t all bad. I was still able to use blender and was able to make fairly decent renders, such as these:
Rendered videos, on the other hand, still look like inferior bowling alley screens, but that’s just based on my skill (or lack there of) of blender rather than software.
But I have one more question. As a young person, there are many ideas I have for blender. One of them is a web series. But as a young person, there isn’t much you can do about that. All you can do is just hope, in the next four to six years in your life, no one just so happens to have already made your idea their profit, and more importantly, for it to still be relevant after all those years. SO, with that in mind, what can you do to pass the time, or what can you do to get a head start?
The age of original ideas died about 500 years ago, what matters now is your unique presentation of a non-original idea. If you want to make a web series, make a web series! Don’t worry if something similar already exists- because it will, and it doesn’t matter. Just make what you want to make and don’t worry about what other people are making
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