After long searching i finally found job as 3D Artist, I worked here for about a year, but today I’ve been told that “We have to part our ways”, I’m getting fired because of poor performance, lack of commitment and initiative, too much mistakes/bugs/inconsistencies in my works, stupidity and inability to understand tasks correctly, overall - not good enough. That hit me hard. Now I’m lost, I don’t know what to do.
In general my models rated very good, but sheer amount of errors turned out too high by local standards.
The thing is, for some time past I was feeling unsatisfied with my job, office environment and tasks. Instead of something interesting i had to model houses and interior flats, i can make something beautiful, i can make characters, weapons, machinery, woods, beautiful stuff, but no, do 50 ugly houses. Work was slow, ductile and boring overall, because of that i was doing a lot of unrelated to work things.
People work here at least 12 hours every day, a lot of them stay and work whole night, sleeping in local couches is a common thing, while i was working only 8 hours every day, after that i don’t contact with anybody from office, basically unreachable, and if somebody will find error in my work, they’ll start looking for me, but in already at home, but as boss said i always had to monitor all chats and in such cases shall immediately respond, same for offdays, weekends and even for holidays. But even that time was too much for me, i had enough time only eat and go to sleep (commuting is at least 1-2 hrs), no quality personal time at all.
And i got to my holiday right before the storm, when people started crunching every day, sleeping in office for almost a month, and while they’re expected me to get back to work with them, i wasn’t, even those 8 hours wasn’t easy for me because i wasn’t happy with my work, it was tormenting me, because of that unsatisfactory i did only bare minimum and lack any initiative.
When i got my last payment chief pointed out - “Look, you got 200, while people here getting 2000, or at least 700, do you really think this is ok?”
Thing is, before it i was working for another company, I was doing different models, not my type, still, they were prettier, i stood in office for night, took initiatives, and was very welcome here, but i couldn’t keep working this way, so i decided to find another job, without crunches, and with objects to model that i like, I thought i found one, but i was wrong.
I don’t know who’s right here, maybe me, maybe them, can’t really say now, but i didn’t liked my job, and it influenced on my results. Is this a common thing in 3D industry? I’m devastated and don’t know what to do, there’s no other 3D companies here, but actually, what if this isn’t my thing at all? I started as animator and later learned 3D only to get money, because there’s no vacancies for 3D animators. Or maybe i didn’t liked models that i had to create. Or maybe i just have to completely change my speciality, which scares me, because it resets me to 0. My friends telling me that I’m a good specialist, and i don’t have to give up on it just because i didn’t fit this company, but, i just don’t know what is what anymore